Two months ago I had a nice and easygoing life – living in Raglan, going to work, creating conferences, surfing, running, hanging out with my friends, being with a gorgeous boyfriend, having nice housemates, enjoying amazing views and not having many worries. If you asked me then, where I see myself a few months later, I would say “here, where else?”.
Today (two months later), I am in Auckland, in a new house, with a different view, with a challenging job, no boyfriend, with all my friends in Raglan and with endless opportunities. No, I didn’t expect or even wish for any of these 🙂
When the change started happening, I was scared, I was worried and reluctant, but the more I was thinking about it, the more I needed the change and the more I wished for it. As much as I loved my life in Raglan, I needed to admit to myself that it was getting a bit monotonous. My days were pretty much the same. Hey Lana, how are you, how was your day? Hm, same as yesterday when we last spoke… What are you up to? Hm, I don’t know… work, surf, run, have some dinner, as usual… I had nothing interesting to offer or to say. I was getting caught in a bubble, I enjoyed my comfort zone and had no desire to leave it. I was becoming a boring little bum. And I loved it! Which I guess was the worst part of it.
All of a sudden I found myself in this new world. And guess what? It’s not even bad 🙂 Today I am wondering what I was afraid of? Why I was so scared of changes? What I was so worried about and why? Once you jump into the unknown you realise that it’s not even that scary. It’s actually fun! It’s new, it’s interesting, it’s challenging. And when I feel fear? Well… what choice do I actually have? I’m here now and I have to go on, move on, I have to fight if necessary. There is just no other option. And when you understand that part, life becomes simple.
“The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.” Paulo Coelho
I focus on positive parts of my new life. There is a lot I have to learn at work and I am not bored. I don’t know Auckland much but at least there is a lot of explore. I used to be adventurous but somehow I lost it somewhere on my way. Now I can be adventurous again 🙂 There are endless opportunities around me and I want to grab them all. I walk around with my eyes wide open. I meet new people. I discover new places. And when I feel sad or insecure (oh yes, there are moments when I cry and feel sorry for myself and am being pathetic in general 🙂 ), I lean on my friends and family, they are worth gold!
Don’t be afraid of changes. Embrace them instead. They can only lead to somewhere better. I am looking forward to seeing what’s going to happen next 🙂